I, me and my digital Cave!

Where can I hide from you? God, you know the ‘real’ me.

Who am I?
I log-in as a user name.
Key-in protected life-passwords
to prove I am ‘me’.

Elsewhere, it is a 4-digit PIN.
I enjoy online status.
Faceless existence.
Multiple Identities.
I juggle ‘this-is-how-I-look-now’ profile images.
Cry attention through
Huff-puff-and-bluff posts.
Tweet one-liners.

I blog.
An interesting post in one.
A likeable quote in another.
Post an ‘I-know-it-all’ comment.
and ‘I-did-this-but-you-did not’ picture.
Even, knot my faith with community threads.
I blog, therefore I must E-xist.

Believe my digital avatar
Live my lie with me.
As you watch me in digital fish-bowls
where mpegs and megabytes reel endlessly.
Am I my image?
Am I my profile?
Am I myself, after my 15 minutes of fame?
Is this my alter-ego?
Or am I just trying to be me?
Can anyone know the real ‘me’?

Blame it on the digital age
But then…
Who is it that speaks,
these faint mental quotes?
CTRL + ALT + Mental-delete

Back online.
Refresh page.
I enter my ‘personal cave’.
My Disneyland.
A willful prisoner chained to the endless links
in the supposedly ‘free’ world of cyberspace

I stare at my interactive ‘Mirror of Erised’.
Endless ‘make-believe’ digital projection.
Public display of ‘give-it-to-me’ attractions.
I see ‘me’ as I want to be.
Who am I? Does anyone care?
Tell me, the Great I AM.

Where shall I go from your Spirit?
Or where shall I flee from your presence?
Psalms 139:7

PS: Where can I hide from you? God, you know the ‘real’ me. Even if I make an ‘escape’ into virtual spaces where I am known only by my username you know me.

Or if I am logged in the invisible mode in my ‘personal cave’, you know me.

If am on FB with a ‘made-up’ face and a bluff post you know me as I am.

If I get lost in a seemingly endless google search you know me as I am. You are here. Everywhere.

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